Day 20- Making time to write and finding inspiration there to meet me. Drinking my favorite latte. The smell of the first raindrops on the asphalt. My meditation today involved lots of stretching and rolling around. I found that I like the feeling of the inside of my knees resting in the hollows of my cheeks.
Day 21- I found so much pleasure in the red and orange sunset, in driving home with the windows open singing loud pop songs, dancing around the living room, and riding my bike in the warm evening air. I took a class today about feminine sensual embodiment. My meditation came in the class as I practiced somatic methods for calling in Shakti energy.
Day 22- I love the feeling of release I have when I pass from the city into the Gorge even though I’m still driving down the highway. That feeling of peace deepened as we dined on local, fresh produce at the farm where much of it was grown. I loved standing barefoot in a circle that honored the coming equinox and this time of balance in our lives. I enjoyed walking through the land and watching the habitats change from wooded forest, to dry oak groves and back. It made my heart smile to see children running ahead to discover the nest that had been built by a bubbling creek. I loved deep, meaningful conversation with friends over wine and food, punctuated with laughter and raunchy jokes.
Day 23- Dancing slowly. Dancing blissfully. Dancing ecstatically. Sweating. Showering.
Day 24- End of summer weather in Portland is exquisitely perfect. And when I can do errands by bike and be out in that weather, it’s even better. I got to enjoy a surprise week-day lunch with my sweetie. I savored the feeling of accomplishment after getting to long-overdue e-mail responses. My meditation tonight looked like a wiggly child’s pose. I noticed that I often find more pleasure being in my head learning something new, than being in my body.
Day 25- A WILD hike! Wildwood trail. Wild rabbits. Wild man. Climbing trees. Connecting deeply.
Day 26- Fall Equinox- Finding beauty in being unbalanced at an intentionally chaotic yoga class. Mid-afternoon hot tub dip. Feasting on fresh crab and salmon. Appreciating the beauty and power and dance of the masculine. Bringing my dancing arousal home for further exploration.
Day 27- Feeling strong in my body as I walk around the park. Feeling deeply grateful for my love and connection with my parents. Feeling juicy as I write eco-erotica. Feeling tipsy as I have an uncommon glass of wine on my lunch date. Feeling playful as we blast music in the car on the way home. Feeling part of something larger as my hubby and I consciously create our lives.
Day 28- Dancing while folding the laundry. Walking in the rain. Eating my (current) favorite sandwich. Talking while walking with a sweet friend. Hearing good news. Witnessing new milestones in my children’s lives.
Day 29- Simple pleasures — a delicious breakfast, sitting on the front porch, playing frisbee with the kids. I found a lot of pleasure in talking with hubby about what we do and don’t want in our lives so we can continue to fine tune and adjust. We toured a club that was supposed to be all about pleasure, but didn’t end up bringing me any at all.
Day 30- A family walk to the neighborhood bakery. Improvising “pleasure yoga” with a dear friend at dance. Riding bikes & deep conversation – a combination of two of my favorite things. Enjoying a sunny day at the farmer’s market. Watching the blood moon rising. Finishing my story and sharing it.
What have I learned from this challenge?
When I started paying attention to the little (and big) things that bring me pleasure, I found that I’m able to notice more of them, and to feel them deeper and for longer. My maximum capacity for pleasure seems to have increased as has my resting state. My internal “battery” seems to be fuller, giving me more ability and patience to be present and stay in pleasure when life doesn’t feel so good.
I also noticed that I had decreasing desire to do the “meditation” portion of this challenge as time went on. Many times, so much of my day had felt pleasurable, that it seemed duplicative to carve out separate time to focus on it.
I believe this has inspired me to continue to notice, be aware, pay attention to, and feel deeply all the things that bring me pleasure every day!